I brushed my teeth today.

I know that may not seem like a lot to most of you, but for me, it’s kind of a big deal. I even flossed, made myself breakfast, and called the dentist and left a message for a followup. It seems ridiculous to some to be proud of such small steps, but the fact that I decided to take care of myself, even the fact that I’m writing this blog, is proof to myself that I can actually be a functioning human being, which most days, unfortunately, I am not. Maybe I’ll even remember to brush before bed. I’m always the type to make schedules and lists to help me remember, but then feel accomplished by just writing the list, thus disregarding doing anything actually useful and voiding the whole purpose of writing the list in the first place. So there’s no point in me making myself a routine, or another chart, or a list of things I can do instead of A, B, or C, I’m just going to disregard myself. I suppose I just have to focus on doing things while I have the gumption to do them. An integral part of living with a non-neurotypical brain is learning what things are hard for you and creating manageable workarounds so that you can function like a semi-neurotypical human being. These workarounds don’t have to make any sense or be catered to anyone else since they’re specifically for YOUR BRAIN. So if it makes you feel better, as long as it’s not at a detriment to yourself or those around you, go ahead and do what YOU need to do to live as happily as YOU want. Fuck the haters. I really got off on a tangent there didn’t I. Anyways, my point is, don’t be afraid to be happy about the small things. You only have one life to live, why not be happy about what you can do rather than mourn and complain about the things you can’t?

-Nix Starmaker.